Sometimes, it feels like we just need to be good enough for God. Like we need to earn it. Like we need to be able to deserve his love.

Sometimes it feels like we need to be able to say we'd chase him anywhere, find him anywhere, put him before anything else with our whole heart. And until we can say that, we must not really love him and we have the suspicion that He can't truly love us. We suspect we're not really safe.

But the truth is, that can't be. It can't be because if it was true, we'd never love him and he'd never love us. We'd never make it on our own.

The shock of God's love is that he knows this and yet he refuses to let it be. Against the truth of our failures, God speaks a greater truth in sending His Son, Jesus Christ. In sending Jesus, He says something like, 'Yes, you can't make it on your own, but I won't have that. I won't have you not make it. You will make it. Not because you fought your way here, but because I carried you here.'

Jesus Christ is the both the affirmation that we aren't good enough and the unbreakable commitment that despite that, we will live through Him anyway. He's the living embodiment of the sentence, "You can't make it, but I won't have that."